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Advice: Wife wants to meet my highschool sweetheart during Thanksgiving.

HS sweetheart and I dated a couple of years including into c...
Concupiscible Red Stage
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magical market
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3some bring MDMA
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talented avocado sneaky criminal area
  11/23/22
His mom probably isn't in to that sort of thing
maroon vivacious jew plaza
  11/20/22
Oh come on at least make this shit believeable.
Sickened church building
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Harsh Infuriating Party Of The First Part Range
  11/18/22
Is your HS girlfriend married? Is her husband coming?
offensive den marketing idea
  11/18/22
She's married, I don't know if her husband's coming
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
Play your wife's insecurities off of your ex
primrose public bath
  11/18/22
Sounds like a way to get fucked up.
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
How
primrose public bath
  11/18/22
What
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
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primrose public bath
  11/18/22
If you don’t plan on hooking up with your ex it’...
Aggressive center
  11/18/22
Some of my bros will be there and I always have a good time ...
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
If ur HS sweetheart is still hot you're probably going to ge...
awkward potus cuckoldry
  11/18/22
Last I saw still looks good. You think this motivates my wif...
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
Of course it motivates her lol. Do u even get women?
awkward potus cuckoldry
  11/18/22
for my wife it's more likely icy stares and snippy comments ...
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
this guy is married
Appetizing school cafeteria mother
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arousing sandwich elastic band
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Serious Q. Is she hotter than your wife? My wife did som...
talented avocado sneaky criminal area
  11/23/22
What is his name?
Sticky hominid toilet seat
  11/18/22
Finally someone dares 2 ask the hard hitting questions
Crystalline soul-stirring menage
  11/18/22
His name is Michael and he has a thundercock and he used to ...
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curious locale really tough guy
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Disturbing fanboi
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violet spot
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laughsome drunken heaven
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Transparent hissy fit chapel
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If you want to reserve the option to get it on with your ex,...
Swollen space
  11/18/22
I'm not trying to be a cheatmo. Ex looked good last time I ...
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
You are probably OK. Wife knows that if the ex meets her she...
Swollen space
  11/18/22
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pea-brained histrionic parlour newt
  11/18/22
Only go if you want to make your wife jealous
Dark hyperactive prole yarmulke
  11/18/22
is it typical for wife of 10 years to still be actively jeal...
Fragrant Embarrassed To The Bone Casino
  11/18/22
not married for quite 10 years yet, but the jealousy doesn't...
Appetizing school cafeteria mother
  11/18/22
lol
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
Oh, yeah, women completely outgrow silly and trivial things ...
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Concupiscible Red Stage
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insane set
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ethereal connection
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Women like to size up their competition. Slutty girl at my c...
cyan forum
  11/18/22
if ur wife is unattractive she will secretly judge u and the...
Fragrant Embarrassed To The Bone Casino
  11/18/22
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cyan forum
  11/18/22
"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
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"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" ...
Orange fluffy bawdyhouse dog poop
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lol holy shit, describe slutty girl
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/18/22
Wife still pushing this. Hinted I'm hiding something not wan...
Concupiscible Red Stage
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multi-colored messiness
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Not my style dawg
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/21/22
But is ex trying to bang you?
Startling Exhilarant Step-uncle's House Keepsake Machete
  11/20/22
No, not her style, she's a good girl (or used to be lol)
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/21/22
Who cares what your wife “wants”, she “wan...
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Is this PUA shit I've been out of "the game" for a...
Concupiscible Red Stage
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  11/21/22
Head of hair and girth of cock both thicker than ever!
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/21/22
So good news is, ex texted to say she's not going, kid thing...
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/22/22
Twist: ex shows up anyway, wife finds out. What now?
Swollen space
  11/22/22
how fucked
Concupiscible Red Stage
  11/23/22
any ass play?
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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:22 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

HS sweetheart and I dated a couple of years including into college, broke up because inevitable distance, etc. Been married to wife 10 years. Haven't visited home over Thanksgiving. Informal high school get together happening Wednesday night, 20 year low key thing at a bar. I told her about it, she's like "Is X going to be there?" I said maybe (friend of friend says she is, haven't been in direct touch with her in a while and she's one of those anti-Facebook people). She's adamant she wants to go. Thoughts?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511792)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:09 PM
Author: magical market

Post removed by moderator for violating The Law of The Land.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512123)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:29 AM
Author: godawful lodge

3some bring MDMA

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511827)



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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:16 PM
Author: Federal comical piazza halford

/thread

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45522754)



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Date: November 23rd, 2022 5:06 AM
Author: talented avocado sneaky criminal area



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45533721)



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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:17 PM
Author: maroon vivacious jew plaza

His mom probably isn't in to that sort of thing

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45522756)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:29 AM
Author: Sickened church building

Oh come on at least make this shit believeable.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511829)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:30 AM
Author: Harsh Infuriating Party Of The First Part Range



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511831)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:30 AM
Author: offensive den marketing idea

Is your HS girlfriend married? Is her husband coming?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511835)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:38 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

She's married, I don't know if her husband's coming

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511918)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:30 AM
Author: primrose public bath

Play your wife's insecurities off of your ex

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511836)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:38 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Sounds like a way to get fucked up.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511920)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:41 AM
Author: primrose public bath

How

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511939)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:42 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

What

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511944)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:43 AM
Author: primrose public bath

?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511952)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:30 AM
Author: Aggressive center

If you don’t plan on hooking up with your ex it’s whatever on that front. I’d be more bummed that wet blanket wife won’t let me get smashed with my bros and relive HS for a 6-hour escape from reality.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511837)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:38 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Some of my bros will be there and I always have a good time with them, been a few years.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511921)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:31 AM
Author: awkward potus cuckoldry

If ur HS sweetheart is still hot you're probably going to get a sloppy blowjob after Thxgiving dinner. Is she?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511842)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:39 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Last I saw still looks good. You think this motivates my wife lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511923)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:40 AM
Author: awkward potus cuckoldry

Of course it motivates her lol. Do u even get women?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511930)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:40 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

for my wife it's more likely icy stares and snippy comments for a week than a sloppy beej

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511935)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:29 PM
Author: Appetizing school cafeteria mother

this guy is married

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512256)



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Date: November 23rd, 2022 9:15 AM
Author: arousing sandwich elastic band



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45534239)



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Date: November 23rd, 2022 5:14 AM
Author: talented avocado sneaky criminal area

Serious Q.

Is she hotter than your wife?

My wife did something similar w/ my first GF (who i've been friendly with still for 20+ years). However, first GF is now an overweight hausfrau. Wife and her are GREAT friends and we see her when she comes to the city / we visit my hometown.

I asked my wife if she would be friendly if she was hot. She honestly said no.

This was born out recently when a college gf and her husband were in the city and we went for drinks with them. Wife was a real bitch. I asked her why, and she said it was because college GF was still hot (which she was, even at 40+ years old).

Women are like small children

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45533727)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:39 AM
Author: Sticky hominid toilet seat

What is his name?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511929)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:43 AM
Author: Crystalline soul-stirring menage

Finally someone dares 2 ask the hard hitting questions

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511948)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:43 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

His name is Michael and he has a thundercock and he used to make my asshole bleed during gym class with it, he's gay now though but he was straight at the time.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511954)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:47 AM
Author: curious locale really tough guy



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45511977)



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Date: November 23rd, 2022 6:26 AM
Author: Disturbing fanboi



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45533838)



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Date: November 21st, 2022 9:27 AM
Author: violet spot



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45524201)



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Date: November 23rd, 2022 3:35 AM
Author: laughsome drunken heaven



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45533677)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:05 PM
Author: Transparent hissy fit chapel



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512097)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:52 AM
Author: Swollen space

If you want to reserve the option to get it on with your ex, don't let her meet your wife. Once a woman knows the wife of a married guy, probability of sex goes down 90%.

Wife will be bitchy for a while if ex is hot and flirty. Been there, done that.

However, maybe things have changed in this crazy modern world. Now all my exes are either dead or in nursing homes (slight exaggeration) so I have no recent experience.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512015)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 11:53 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

I'm not trying to be a cheatmo.

Ex looked good last time I saw her.

She's naturally "flirty," outgoing, extrovert, etc.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512023)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:16 PM
Author: Swollen space

You are probably OK. Wife knows that if the ex meets her she will to some extent be immunized against an affair with you. That's why she's pushing so hard. If you try to keep her away, she will think you are trying to reserve your cheatmo option. Women have a club, and we're not in it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512177)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:03 PM
Author: pea-brained histrionic parlour newt



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512081)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:05 PM
Author: Dark hyperactive prole yarmulke

Only go if you want to make your wife jealous

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512094)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:06 PM
Author: Fragrant Embarrassed To The Bone Casino

is it typical for wife of 10 years to still be actively jealous of an ex? asking for a friend

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512104)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:30 PM
Author: Appetizing school cafeteria mother

not married for quite 10 years yet, but the jealousy doesn't seem to be fading!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512266)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:36 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512308)



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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:14 PM
Author: Startling Exhilarant Step-uncle's House Keepsake Machete

Oh, yeah, women completely outgrow silly and trivial things like "jealousy" etc., often settling into a high-minded routine of offering scabrous reviews of fusion sushi joints.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45522736)



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Date: November 21st, 2022 1:20 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45525384)



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Date: November 21st, 2022 1:28 PM
Author: citrine tantric parlor mad cow disease



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45525425)



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Date: November 21st, 2022 1:35 PM
Author: insane set



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45525455)



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Date: November 13th, 2025 5:19 PM
Author: ethereal connection



(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#49427781)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:21 PM
Author: cyan forum

Women like to size up their competition. Slutty girl at my company who flirts with me constantly “can’t wait” to meet my wife at our company holiday party

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512199)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:25 PM
Author: Fragrant Embarrassed To The Bone Casino

if ur wife is unattractive she will secretly judge u and the flirting will cease immediately

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512231)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:27 PM
Author: cyan forum

She knows my wife is attractive because we’re friends on Facebook. I suspect it’s more of a social domination thing.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5237722&forum_id=2)#45512244)



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:27 PM
Author: Orange fluffy bawdyhouse dog poop

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:27 PM
Author: Orange fluffy bawdyhouse dog poop

"I Still Unload": This Man Is a "Nullo" Who Removed His Penis and Balls

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Simon Davis

10/16/14 11:10AM

Filed to: INTERVIEWS

In 1994, a South Florida man who goes by the name Gelding was surgically castrated. In 2011, he had his penis removed as well. He's a "nullo": A cisgender man who removes his external genitalia completely as a form of body modification, and he recently agreed to answer our questions—from "why?" to "what do balls taste like?"

Gelding is a nudist and describes himself as a submissive bear. Apart from his desire to use a pseudonym, he let it all hang out (so to speak) when I reached out to him and graciously answered every question I had.

Is nullo your preferred term to describe yourself and others like you who are castrated and have removed their penis?

Yes, the reason that we use that it is not transgender. It's simply nullification of what you've got. A friend of mine Mack in San Francisco likes to use the term "mascunull", because I remain as masculine as they come with fur and so forth. But I no longer have the parts.

What are some misconceptions people have about nullos?

A few men don't know their own physiology to the point where they think if they lose their balls they can't come any more. And that's false. If you look at the physiology you see that the fluids are made by the seminal vesicles and the prostate. Very little of the fluid and the content is produced in the testes. I still unload.

But the active ingredient for impregnating someone isn't there.

Right.

Do you get a lot of people who think you're trying to become a woman?

Absolutely. And it's mostly the medical profession who sees the sexes as either male or female. And anyone who wants to alter any part of that is in some way suffering from gender dysphoria. They don't like themselves for some reason and they want to change gender. And that's absolutely false.

It's not a dysphoria. I see it in the positive way of working toward something, rather than away from something. Many of the guys instead of putting a negative feel on it see it as a positive. Being castrated is a positive to them. Rather than removing something that they dislike, they are moving in the direction that they want. I went through a long set of psychological evaluation sessions with a psychologist here in town, because that was necessary in order to have the penis removed.

You've previously discussed your 1994 castration. However, I didn't find anything on your penis removal in 2011. Can you talk about that?

I knew I was uncomfortable in having frankly large male parts. I would quite often sit on my own balls because they were loose unless I wore something tight and held them in I would sit on them and squash them. That got me into trouble playing soccer in college when they forced us to wear these hard plastic cups. What happened was I fell on a guy's upright knee with the weight of another player behind me, so two of us fell on the knee. The knee happened to hit the middle of the plastic cup and imploded and tore me up. I was severely injured.

The doctor saved everything but over a period of time the nerves gave me some problems and I had aches in my testicles all the time. When I was in the military service they tried doing a varicose vein removal but that didn't help, it just made matters worse. They thought I was suffering from varicose veins. So after leaving the service I had them removed. And that removed that little problem but I still had the nerve sensations in the penis which woke me up at night. So I could get erect, but it was painful.

So I talked with my urologist and he said the only treatment for that was to make it numb, which is very dangerous because if you make something like that numb then you don't know if it's infected for some reason. Or remove it, but to do that he needs to cover his ass and asked for a psychological evaluation. And my own doctor is a professor at Nova Southeastern University here in. She is the most brilliant doctor I've ever met. So, I asked her about this problem and she was very forthright and said "well, we'll have to treat you". She didn't consider it something that was wrong with me, she said "we have to investigate." I went to see a psychiatrist and he spent a good 90 minutes with me and said "yes, I have just the person that can work with you." So the psychologist did a battery of personality tests and said "you're perfectly fine, your only problem is that you've got these physical problems which work on your nerves." And I said "yeah." And he said "it also works with your personality" because I'm a gay submissive and I always have been and it wasn't working right. So in order to to fix it I worked toward a goal of having things removed. And that was it. I'm working in a positive way to solve my own personal problem.

But was castration something you were contemplating prior to the injury?

Yes. For whatever reason I was always embarrassed by the size of what I had. It didn't fit my personality.

Do you remember when you the fantasy to remove your testicles first occurred?

I had a baby face in high school, there was one of these bullies and he said "you have a man's equipment but you're still a boy" and he squeezed my balls in the shower. He was on the football team, I was on the soccer team showering together and he said "you shouldn't have such big equipment" so he squeezed my balls and at that point it was just a fantasy for me. So how about getting rid of them for some reason?

When did it go from fantasy to aspiration?

It became a fetish thing where I would do sort of more self destructive things with them like putting rubber bands around them and needles through the balls and whatnot. It's a progression which a lot of guys go through. It's something that works on them and they say "Well, how about if we just have them off? Then I won't be bothered by this constant urge to hurt them". And this is where a psychologist gets into the dysphoria. It's very difficult to distinguish whether it's a dislike for something or instead you're working towards something else. I always thought when I was on the beach—I was also on the swim team—and we had Speedos, it was difficult to pack everything in frankly. I would be embarrassed and everybody was looking and here I am and I've got the biggest package and I'm not the biggest guy and I got a whole lot of looks from everybody.

I had a big dick, it got damaged and I was a bottom. I didn't want to use it, I got pushed into using it, I had to take all sorts of medications and was tired of being somebody else's tool.

Broadly speaking, how can someone know that being a nullo is something they actually want to go through with as opposed to something they fantasize about?

That's something really for a psychologist to answer, but in talking to all the guys that I've been talking with, they try to come up with all sorts of different rationalizations to justify it. In my case, my medical situation really didn't justify it because I was just uncomfortable with what I had. It wasn't medically necessary. But I felt that I would be much more comfortable having the issues of having the sensation but not being able to use it well. It was something like a guy having a useless appendage and it's something he has to carry around, and it becomes baggage after a while.

If someone starts/botches the process on their own, what would you recommend they do? Should people use a cover story to avoid getting in trouble?

No. Go to the emergency room. Today, they have been exposed to a lot more of the literature out there than they were 20 years ago. They're not going to be institutionalized. I mean years ago they used to institutionalize guys that were gay.

How would you say the breakdown is between gay and straight men for nullos?

I would have to say it's mostly gays. I don't know of a straight guy who became a nullo.

You had said in a previous interview that for castrations it's about a two to one for gay to straight men that decide to do it.

I've heard of a couple of straight guys who decided that they were making too many babies so they had their balls off so they could take testosterone and continue. I know quite a few bodybuilders both gay and straight whose testes have shrunk because of the steroids they are taking which are bad for their health. So they got castrated and now they're on medically injected testosterone which is good for them. It's not as harmful as oral steroids are or some of the other shit that they're pumping into themselves.

How would you recommend people do their penectomy and castration?

In the last couple of years, my friend Mack from San Francisco ran into Dr. Crane from Brownstein & Crane and he met him, and I don't know how the two of them had the discussion, and then I had a phone interview with Dr. Crane and I explained my situation with him and now Dr. Crane is no longer doing just transgender type of procedures but [also] genital modifications.

So in a way, you educated him.

The protocol that the doctors use for transgender people is called the Harry Benjamin protocol. So for example Dr. Reed in Miami, before you go to his clinic you have to take female hormones for six months and show some development of breasts and whatnot, some feminine characteristics before he will deal with you. And why do that when you simply want to get the genitals removed?

If anything, wouldn't additional testosterone be what you'd need after castration?

Men who get castrated, they do get depressed if they don't start fairly right away on testosterone. Because the falling hormone causes hot flashes first of all, and then the loss of libido. You lose all interest in sex and everything else.

Are there any changes that occur to the body as a result?

Body changes are minimal really. If you lose your balls, you won't lose all your hair.

What about voice? Is that a myth?

Voice doesn't change, no. The larynx is a hard tissue, and the voice box and everything else is a hard tissue. But the timbre of your voice is a factor of the larynx. I sang in the college choir, I know about these things.

One thing I noticed while reading testimonials is that many people seem to try their hand at castration and penectomy but then go to the doctor only if it goes wrong. How much of this would you say is due to the medical profession's reluctance to remove healthy body parts and how much is due to people's general fear of discussing this type of thing with their doctor or therapist?

You know about the Hippocratic oath right? "First do no harm". They have to be convinced that what they are doing is in fact an improvement on your health. Which is why the surgeon is requesting a psychological evaluation. And the psychologist comes back and says "yeah, he's going to be uncomfortable where he is, he's going to be more improved, better mood, better this, better that" and so forth. So from a totality point of view, it's going to get better after he gets modified.

And let me tell you my mood has improved dramatically since going nullo. I don't miss the baggage. I don't miss the fact that I get into sex with a guy, he expects me to perform in some ways, now he doesn't have that expectation. In fact, quite a few guys find it very arousing that they don't have to have that distraction.

Are there other benefits?

Another thing is, guys who are aroused by my situation are very aroused. I've got some guys who are pursuing me a lot. And they just like this idea, because there's nothing there to be in the way. Face to face fucking is very pleasurable. And when they're doing that I actually wet their stomachs with my fluids. And this one guy, he likes to go down on me. He's a bi guy and he said he does this with his girlfriend so he goes down there and starts licking me. And he just loves that idea. He loves the idea that I have a hairy chest and what is to him a very tiny vagina that he can't fuck but he can lick and he can enjoy being the male role. I've even got a straight guy here in town who likes to fuck me because I don't have any male genitals and he doesn't feel threatened by that.

Are there any downsides?

One of the most obvious cons is I have to sit to pee, or I have to use one of these female urination devices. It's an odd funnel shaped device that you can use if there's only a men's urinal. Also, some times I get urinary tract infections. There's a shorter path to the bladder through what I've got now. So I've got to be very careful and keep it clean. I can't get guy fingering me down there because it's the inside of the urethra so it's sensitive.

Do you ever get "phantom dick" syndrome when you are reaching for it out of habit?

A lot of the nerves are bundled on the base of the penis where most of the sensation comes from. It's not along the length of penis but on the base of the penis is where most of the sensations are. And I wake up in the morning with a feeling that I have a big dick that's erect.

In your experience, what percentage of castrations are done by non-medical professionals? How about penectomies? What are the safety risks for each? Would you say one is more difficult than the other for a layman?

I would above three quarters [by non-medical professionals]. And that number is lower than say twenty years ago. There are not as many today.

Which are not as many?

The amateur cutters. There are a lot of wannabes that are successful that manage to stay below the radar of the authorities because they run into trouble because of their lack of skill. Because if you mess up there are problems there. But if you're very careful in choosing the men you work with so that you have very low risk involved, which is age (you don't do old men), you don't do very overweight men, you don't do men who smoke, who don't take drugs and anything else. If you take these fairly low-risk guys and you do it well, then there won't be any problems. Once these guys get castrated, most of them simply become very private and they don't brag about things. They sort of withdraw from pursuing anything else because they've reached their goal.

So is the the percentage of amateur cutters lower today due to more people with medical training performing castrations?

Yes. They are finding that there is a living in this if they do it among other things.

How about with penectomies? I would imagine (and hope!) there's fewer amateurs performing these.

Almost all of them are done by medical professionals. That's tricky, yeah. More tricky. It's sort of major surgery and it's been done by some amateurs. They're fairly good with their surgical techniques. I was actually at one and the guy did a fairly good job but it took a long time and it was a very involved, very slow process. I've heard of only three or four done by cutters in the past and they have left active participation in this.

When you do a penectomy you have to re-route the urethra, yes?

Yes, what I did with this is I knew where I was going with this in 1999 and I contacted my urologist in Hollywood [Florida], an old guy who was just about to retire and I talked to him very carefully and said "in the future I'm going to want the penis removed". And he said "OK, we can do a urethral relocation in the base of the penis".

So how do things like ejaculation and urination work when you've rerouted the urethra and no longer use the penis for them?

With ejaculation, just before you reach the peak, all the fluid is there at the base of the penis, and right before orgasm happens it's the urethra that acts like a rail gun and expels the semen. So when you don't use the penis, there's no force behind it. It just flows out.

What happens to the body parts after removal?

Quite a few [cutters] collect them. They preserve them, they put them in jars. One guy embedded his in plastic and now it's an ornament somewhere. This typically happens when you're in a master/slave dominant/submissive relationship and the submissive gives up his balls to his partner for keepsake. And then you get into this S&M thing where the dominant partner controls and regulates the libido of the submissive. Especially if the submissive is on say androgel where the turnaround time from full sexiness to limp dick is about on the order of a week. The reaction time for the transdermal is very fast. Whereas the injections wear off after two to three weeks. The half life of the testosterone I'm taking is eight days.

You mentioned consumption of body parts in another interview. Is that for real?

It is for real, yes. Some guys do that. Think about the Testy Festy, where they go there and every year there they have concentration of people who are into eating sheep and bull nuts and rocky mountain oysters. I know a few cutters that don't charge anything for their work, the only charge they have is that they get the nuts afterwards.

Is this something that you've tasted?

Yes, as a matter of fact they do taste a little like chicken. Actually I would have to say they taste as much like chicken as they do roast pork. But it all depends on how you cook them. If you cook them in salted butter then they might be saltier than they might otherwise be.

How do you like them cooked?

I went to a cutter's place and he was having an event where he cut a number of guys and I was assisting him there. And what I did is I cooked them up in some butter with some mushrooms. Quite good with a nice red merlot wine.

Cheers to that, Gelding.



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Date: November 18th, 2022 12:36 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

lol holy shit, describe slutty girl

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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:11 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Wife still pushing this. Hinted I'm hiding something not wanting to go? I tried to play off as lots of boring people, prole, etc. Ex is not bringing her husband. Trap? No, not trying to bang my ex, etc.

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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:15 PM
Author: multi-colored messiness



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Date: November 21st, 2022 9:12 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Not my style dawg

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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:16 PM
Author: Startling Exhilarant Step-uncle's House Keepsake Machete

But is ex trying to bang you?

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Date: November 21st, 2022 9:13 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

No, not her style, she's a good girl (or used to be lol)

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Date: November 20th, 2022 8:15 PM
Author: arrogant bearded generalized bond hospital

Who cares what your wife “wants”, she “wants” you to tell her no

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Date: November 21st, 2022 9:13 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Is this PUA shit I've been out of "the game" for a while dawg.

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Date: November 21st, 2022 9:29 AM
Author: ruby sanctuary dragon

“Oh wow Johnsmeyer, you look great! Haven’t changed a bit in ten years! I thought you might have a growth spurt though.”

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Date: November 21st, 2022 1:20 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

Head of hair and girth of cock both thicker than ever!

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Date: November 22nd, 2022 11:02 PM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

So good news is, ex texted to say she's not going, kid thing, sorry to miss it. (We almost never text, like perfunctory happy birthday.) Told my wife casually, she seemed uninterested in going now. So crisis averted lol. I can hang with my bros tomorrow night low key.

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Date: November 22nd, 2022 11:05 PM
Author: Swollen space

Twist: ex shows up anyway, wife finds out. What now?

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Date: November 23rd, 2022 9:09 AM
Author: Concupiscible Red Stage

how fucked

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Date: November 23rd, 2022 9:16 AM
Author: thriller dilemma international law enforcement agency

any ass play?

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