Reading Philip K Dick’s Exegesis

900 pages of pure mental illness

Circling the same points and themes over and over

I know I do it too, maybe not quite so bad

Psychology

World events

The central bank owners

The Demiurge

People as NPCs

Despair, longing for connection to God

It’s the same themes, the same topics over and over again

Circling them, hitting them from new directions

But I never get *there*

The ride never *ends*

Occasionally there are breakthroughs, movement

But the process itself continues

Dick dropped dead at 52 or 53

Spent a decade circling his 1974 spiritual breakthrough

And for what?

okay, I read it

He’s lucky, he gets read after death

Most don’t, either while alive or dead

But then what, what does that accomplish?

Deepens humanity’s understanding of spirituality?

For what, to what end?

This is just a madhouse

A parasitical hierarchical system that scrambles everyone’s brains

So those at the top can take the labor of everyone else

While the environment crashes to levels it will never come back from

Leaving a smoking planet of trash, destruction and mass species die off

So I circle my themes, my points

Over and over

Like the retarded Dick man

Out of nothing else to do

This is what my mission is, even though it seems pointless

What else would I do? Watch sports, do touch frisbee, socialize?

Talk politics around the water cooler?

fuck.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5802028&forum_id=2).#49457787)

consuela i'm sure you're reading this -- you should consider what living a good life means. and whether other people potentially being influenced by you, even after death, factors in at all.

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You don’t individuate, you just separate yourself from God to the point where your husk devoid of any light gets carried off into Sheol oblivion abyss permavoid

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5802028&forum_id=2).#49457836)