age, race, measurements, personality, tattoos and piercings, etc

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49433787)

now she is 28

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49433796)

I miss her so much I have worked so hard in her absence and am finally ready, but I said so many horrible things to her in the aftermath that I am not sure I can navigate. My life is ruined

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49433863)

I basically did that. She started lashing out at me for sucking shit and I just doubled down :( so cooked bros

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49434373)

"I can’t give you the paragraph verbatim (copyright), but here’s the gist of that “rolodex of memories” moment:

Hyoi pushes back on Ransom’s very human FOMO about good experiences being “over.”

He says that a pleasure is only fully grown when it’s remembered – you’re mistaken if you treat the event and the memory as two different things. The remembering is like the final movement of a poem: it’s the last part of the pleasure, not some ghostly after-image.

He tells Ransom that when they first met, the meeting itself was “nothing” compared to what that meeting will become as he remembers it over the rest of his life—even “when I lie down to die.” The real meeting is what that experience has grown into inside him over time."

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49434401)

but he's caught golden-handed. very awkward.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49434748)

What was she like as a person?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49434993)

20 years later I can say she is an insipid birdbrain womanchild and a retard and we have absolutely nothing in common and she's a useless, shitty person. She was REALLY good looking though and I think that was a huge percent of it. She looked a lot like a young Carrie Mulligan. So it really didn't matter what she was like, which was mostly atrocious. She was also, for some period of time at least, really there for me in the bleakest moments of my life. That had a lot to do with it too.

I never felt that way about a bird since. I've been icy ever since. I never really gave my heart away after that one bad experience.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5798544&forum_id=2/#49434999)