A 7 & 1/2 year marriage, 8 year relationship. One filled with drugs, manipulation, and mental and physical abuse. One where the Gods and Goddesses blessed me with my beautiful 6 year old daughter, but otherwise I recieved nothing but a black hole of empty promises and unrequited love.

No more. I planned this out. Today felt right. These pieces to my ritual felt right. I felt like it was finally time, so here's my beautiful reawakening. My new beginning. My future.

There's a laundry list of bits and pieces to this, and obviously a good bit of herbal input, so even though an altar would be fancy shmancy, I decided safety first and made a mini altar to put in the tub in case any herbs or pieces tried to run a rampant fire. I'd rather not start my new spiritual independence being homeless 🤣

The black candle has his name and says "No More running upwards so that the last word standing is "No". It's felt right.

The purple candle has a personal sigil for myself as well as "Free Me Please" because I refuse to make demands when I am the one who put myself in the situation. It runs downward so that "Please" is the last word standing. Again, it felt right.

The "Herbal Laundry List" <Around the tray> ~ Anointing Oil (Also on each holder) ~ Eggshell and Incence Ash mixture ~ Black Salt ~ Cloves ~ Cinnamon ~ Rosemary ~ Nettle ~ Rue ~ Vervain ~ Dried Lemon Slice

<In between> ~ Obsidian Pyramid ~ Red and Pink Himalayan Salt ~ Rose Petals ~ Lemongrass ~ Lavendar ~ Mugwort (or it might be around, I can't remember now 😅)

<Around my candle or in the holder> ~ Basil ~ Ladies Mantle ~ More rosemary

This spell was done with planning, but much of it was thrown together by feeling and intent alone. Some things might not make perfect sense to you, and tbh they don't have to. They were done with hope and determination behind a very strong intent.

I also have folded paper in each candle holder from when I cut the yarn from the ball. His has his name folded away from me 3 times, mine has my sigil folded towards me 3 times. I severed the cord between the papers.

I had to share this, because I want to be proud of myself for my effort and my intent. I feel like a piece of myself is burning along with the candles, but not painfully. More in a "light a fire under my ass" kind of way. I want to sever myself from his leechy-ass and give everything I can to my daughter in the upcoming divorce (which will begin as soon as finances allow for my lawyer who's already on standby.)

I'll be doing some cleansing work and grounding to refresh myself when I wake up tomorrow, mainly because I can't exactly get a shower with my mini-altar taking up the space! Thank you for checking this out and Blessed Be 💜

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5738985&forum_id=2#49022719)