usually too agitated to stay in bed long so i make some coffee and pace back and forth or walk outside for an hour

WFH wagecucking, job is not secure at the moment. pretty often i’m lying on my couch half-asleep during Zoom calls

if i have enough caffeine i might go for a run or bike ride

eat sugary and/or fatty food for dinner because i stopped giving a shit about eating healthy long ago. 25 lbs or so overweight

exhausted by end of work day, just lying on my couch waiting around to die

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48138191)

what kind of work do you do

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48138667)

Keeps "mental illness" as a model but also it's your fault

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48138238)

We need to fix out dopamine regulation but it’s a vicious smcycle

Get off caffeine it just makes you sleep like shit and feel like you need it to have a functioning brain. Sleep proper. Stop eating sugary shit asap. Take some supplements for brain health and it’ll start to clear up along with exercise for dopamine regulation

Nothing seems worth it because ur dopasneed sustem / reward system is basically fried from GC porn, sugar , poor lifestyle

I’m not saying this is going to fix the meaning to ur life or make u not suicidal but it’ll fix the mostly physiological experience of feeling like battered shut ecru waking moment of ur life

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48138312)

take after a meal

if everything else has failed, you have nothing to lose by trying

PLEASE REPORT RESULTS

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48139039)

stoicism/meditation/exercise/counseling/red light therapy/nutritional supplements. feeling way better. income up 150% (I know I know xo, "food bank" jokes etc. But consider the starting place!!!!). dating on the regular. life is good.

one thing which helped me with my negative self talk - ask myself, just as a hypothetical exercise, something like: if it WERE possible to improve your circumstances, just hypothetically, not committing to that being the case, but just IMAGINING it were possible, what would you do? what steps would you try? and that was a shockingly powerful way of routing around my mental damage. not saying that'd work for everyone - everyone's different so your own personal "hack" will likely be different as well. but it's true that you can often #OneWeirdTrick your way to lots of progress

you might have some actual physical issue that retard doctors can't diagnosis which feeds into your mental issues btw; that was my case.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48559817)

seriously though, * big hug *. i think a lot of us have issues w depression here

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5602351&forum_id=2Elisa#48559899)