Yeah? What’s coming to you?

The world, Chico. And everything in it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48565144)

I’d like to not wake up at night screaming in agony.

I’d like to be a better father, a better husband, and a friend a friend would like to have.

I want to make some money and not be so financially dependent on terrible jobs that break my soul and cause health problems (see above).

I’d like to feel better about myself as a person.

I’d like to take my kids camping.

I’d like to feel like I made a good decision or two.

I’d like to stop dreaming of death all day.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48564848)

it does seem that you should spend your wealth before killing self.

plus, as a pro 2a poster, this place needs you. not the greatest selling point for someone considering killself, but take what you can get

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48566774)

if not, watch the first 20 minutes and report back

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48566788)

the point being, don't give the anti-gunners another number to use for "gun violence", if you're going to off yourself, do something more dramatic

but really, pro 2a people don't need to be offing themselves. much rather it be shitlibs.

why are you considering it?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48566916)

that might be as simple as outliving your parents or siblings, but i'm thinking more personal accomplishment

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567111)

otherwise I find the notion of "accomplishment" to be absurd, you could probably only name a few dozen people in the history of the human race that mattered, the rest, even the great ones, were interchangeable and what they did led us to here

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567124)

your second paragraph/sentence is the problem of perspective. the earth to the universe is not even one piece of fly shit to the earth. that's pretty overwhelming to anyone with a brain. and to the extent a few dozen people matter longterm, so what?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567144)

is it bad to participate in evil or be vain?

hank, this is just wasting time. you have to figure out how to make your life worthwhile

or not

but ending your life is nothing but an end to that question. i doubt you can justify that end anymore than anyone else has to this point which is to say. you can't.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567455)

religion is an easy out that you have apparently rejected to justify sticking around

Emilie du Chatelet! Her piece on happiness says there is no point to life other than to feel pleasurable sensations - although not fully hedonist as she says the proper regulation of pleasure is important in allowing for the maximum pleasure possible. She illustrates this through the example of diminishing happiness from buying 100 of something you like, vs more overall happiness from buying less(10) of them.

stole that from reddit as i was trying to remember hedonism

have you tried hedonism? if not, why have you rejected it?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567554)

I do not reject it, in fact I would recommend it to most people, but it is still just a distraction that grows old, as all of them do

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567580)

i don't have a clear answer as the meaningless of everything is a theme of being alive.

if you have enough money to shut down and self indulge, then shut down and self indulge. i don't mean hedonism, but doing whatever you think is worth doing.

is there anything you think is worthwhile? certainly, learning more? shut down and read.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48567586)

I live with chronic pain as well. It makes you depressed b/c you never get a break from it. Do a hydrotherapy session, stretch and go get a massage. The pain will be there but you need to give yourself a break. Stretch when you wake up, stretch before you go to bed, even for just a few minutes.

You'll make it, and you can start ticking things off your list.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48564899)

if u were relatively "normal" then u cannot fix whatever issues u have past 40. those are just unfixable things, u tried for 40 years and werent able to fix them, u wont magically do it after 40

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48565236)

My wife has stopped working completely.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48564920)

will YOU maek it after 40? it seems like you whine about the same shit every day and dont really do much to make permanent changes in your life. if you keep on your current path, you will NOT maek it.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48565245)

"Oh no I only make more than 90% of people and not 95%. There's no way i can spend $40 a night to take my kids camping!"

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5665772&forum_id=2Elisa#48566358)