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taking q's on my recent suicide, moutaintop ayahuasca retreat, psychotropic meds
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Date: February 12th, 2019 5:36 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37771811) |
Date: February 13th, 2019 5:29 PM Author: supple sable lay thinking about doing an ayahuasca ceremony, friend. was it as life-changing as it's said to be? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777729) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:32 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig it's cool but you'll realize its flame just like everything else
if you trust the person doing the ceremony try enough to where you puke and then go about your life
im starting to see why terrenece mckenna was saying psychedelics arre flame towards the end of his life after his shroom trip into the void - youre not leaving your body and exploring the astral with "spirits" like some faggoty Aubrey Marcus Rogan listener, youre really just exploring the neurobioligical circuitry and embedded memories in your own DNA, nervous system, etc imo
it serves a purpose if you have traumas/fucked up seretonin etc but theres no *answers* in the brew
"beware of unearned wisdom" - Carl Jung |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:40 PM Author: supple sable lay yeah I am basically thinking of it as liquid courage/shortcut to unearth some deep shit I am otherwise reluctant to bother just to get over it and get on with my life. is this a realistic expectation? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777807) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:44 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig yes, i would say go in there specifically with the intention of seeing and understanding the root of the trauma and it will show you. even if you don't want to ask for a second or 3rd cup and prepare to puke up what feels like a demonic entity, you will wake up like a new person
dont get caught up in the religious flame group side of it aferwards as you'll be receptive to that chicanery and theres nothing there expect the usual religious tribal sexual domestication
If it is more addiction in nature i would jump to iboga and can recommend someone in Mexico or Canada who is professional, you don't want to fuck around with that one as it will kill you |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:51 PM Author: supple sable lay not addiction, and had to google iboga - ty. do you have contacts for ayahuasca "shamans" in the US? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777859) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:55 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig i dont want to have anymore contact with the groups in the states to be honest after my experiences, theres a reputable center in Iquitos run by an actual MAPS affiliated guy you can look up I would start there (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777885) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:57 PM Author: supple sable lay ty, good to know (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777896) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:16 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig tldr version;
the only true satisfaction will come when you realize the use of exogenous substances to get into the moment is not possible with your conception of self
the self and the moment are mutually exclusive and always will be, that is truth
theres nothing spiritual or "good" about this, its purely utilitarian in the sense that being inside of yourself as opposed to in the moment/oneness/god/ether etc will always pale in comparison
these substances give us the illusion of losing "yourself" in the moment, beacuase we cant live with ourselves and all the stories and past that comes with that.
you are seeking freedom from self which is always available to you by truly desiring to seek the moment, the substances give you a glance of this but its never the real thing and always fades within a few weeks
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Date: June 29th, 2024 11:40 AM Author: theotic chad (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#47792026) |
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Date: June 29th, 2024 6:31 PM Author: Mercurius Judaicus (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#47793044) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:30 PM Author: Soggy Fragrant Parlor Here's a good Q: Fuck you, niggerfaggot. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777735) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 7:53 PM Author: razzle-dazzle church selfie Wtf man (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778448) |
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Date: June 29th, 2024 6:35 PM Author: As far as they will go but even farther (🧐) (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#47793052) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:30 PM Author: bat-shit-crazy sweet tailpipe what was(is) death like? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777737) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:38 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig i saw the absolute worst imaginable hellish thing i could ever imagine that i wouldnt wish on my worst enemy
and then i saw the most transcendent magical thing i could barely comprehend a few days later
its all fucking flame man, the living universe is inside of us and accessible at anytime if we align with the Truth
as per your question, if what i saw originally was the underworld post-living i couldnt imagine anything more horrifying to experience -- im not even going to describe it but the closest i could say is the concept of Sheol in ancient hebraic texts of a complete separation from God/truth
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sheol |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:41 PM Author: supple sable lay <its all fucking flame man, the living universe is inside of us and accessible at anytime if we align with the Truth>
is this something you gleaned from your trip? |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:53 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig ive done probably triple digits of ceremonies and have reached a point where it feels below the dignity of being a conscious human being to rely and depend on plants to arrive at my truth
these modalities can be good entry points to a path of truth (like spiritual training wheels) but they can send you down the wrong path quick.
I have firsthand seen people channeling and conjuring "entities" from "other planes" and attaching them to participants who had horrific violent experiences once these "entities" were removed or exposed. I dont know if its all flaem or not but i definitely saw what i saw and discuseed it with higher level "shamanic" types who explained to me enough about what goes on betweeen the humans invlved in these things to not want to expose myself to it anymore, at least in group settings.
also the fact that our bodies natural prevent us from experiencing the oral DMT experience and that it has to be made by humans, not naturally found leads me to believe that it is not in my evolutionary best interest to continue with these compounds |
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Date: June 29th, 2024 11:42 AM Author: theotic chad (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#47792029) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:44 PM Author: unholy histrionic station explain (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777828) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:46 PM Author: hot comical patrolman Yeah, I want to hear more about this. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777837) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:02 PM Author: sooty provocative orchestra pit (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778503) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:53 PM Author: Appetizing bawdyhouse corn cake This is all flame. It's just the psychoactive substance activating the parts of your brain you most associate with "Hell" or "heaven" or "god." Same with dmt and "impossible geometric" patterns. That's not to say it's not interesting but don't act like you've seen something that no one else has (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777870) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:54 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig im not disagreeing with this and even mentioned this in my ealrier post (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777874) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:47 PM Author: Grizzly godawful messiness i like these kinds of threads (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777839) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 6:15 PM Author: Honey-headed step-uncle's house coldplay fan (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777969) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 6:15 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777970) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:48 PM Author: Appetizing bawdyhouse corn cake How can you do an ayahuasca trip in the states without dealing with some "shaman" 🐒 (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777845) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:49 PM Author: supple sable lay I think you have to do it with a shaman, the idea is that it's so wild that you basically need supervision by someone who has done and led these things before. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777848) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:50 PM Author: Appetizing bawdyhouse corn cake sounds flame (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777849) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:52 PM Author: supple sable lay idk man, if I am tripping balls on a substance I've never tried before, I would want to do it with someone who knows what's up. (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777861) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 5:54 PM Author: Appetizing bawdyhouse corn cake Like a doctor? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777876) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 6:02 PM Author: supple sable lay yeah a real doctor familiar with ayahuasca would be ideal, but not realistic (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37777917) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:00 PM Author: razzle-dazzle church selfie EVer try San Pedro? (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778485) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:22 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig yeah very masculine vibe compared to aya
had an extremely rough physical experience on it though but made my own batch , need to try again but stringer dose and better setting
i like that the "intelligence" of the plant was very direct, clear and rational when i asked it something - i dont usually get that with aya or shrooms - they feel very abstract or imagery based, not very concrete liek the alkaloids |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:00 PM Author: Massive big theater (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778486) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:32 PM Author: Stirring Shitlib Hall unexpected levels of scholarship itt (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778643) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 8:35 PM Author: Flatulent filthpig (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37778655) |
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Date: February 14th, 2019 12:01 AM Author: razzle-dazzle church selfie (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37779662) |
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Date: February 13th, 2019 10:55 PM Author: Racy obsidian halford Seems like Shrooms get you to an equally interesting psychedelic state with fewer unpleasant effects (http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=4200399&forum_id=2Reputation#37779406) |