(TW for weight loss)

My 30th birthday is coming up in just a couple months and I feel like I’m starting to see some small changes in my body that are triggering some really uncomfortable feelings. Namely, even though my weight hasn’t changed, my waist and ribcage seem to have gotten a bit bigger in just the past few months. I’m having trouble finding new jeans that fit right and my bras aren’t fitting right, either - even ones that I remember fitting fairly recently.

It’s making me want to try losing weight again and I really don’t know how I feel about that. Semi-separately, I’d really like to eat more healthfully and start exercising more regularly, both of which are going to be sort of difficult for the next few months for a variety of reasons. I’m planning on moving in with my boyfriend this summer, and he knows I’d like to find a building with a gym as one of the amenities. It might even be within our budget, though at the higher end. Also, he’s very aware of healthy eating and cooks more than I do. Not that he’s ever even hinted at wanting me to lose weight, but the food and exercise situation should change.

But that’s off topic. I’m just feeling a little weird* about getting older and my body changing in ways that make me uncomfortable and make my clothing fit me differently.

*It should tell you something that I just accidentally wrote “weight” instead of “weird.” Shows you where my head is, right?

http://atheologist.tumblr.com/post/78847813303/i-have-tried-on-close-to-fifteen-goddamn-pairs-of

I have tried on close to FIFTEEN goddamn pairs of white jeans, and only one of them even fits moderately well. Why do all jeans fit me weirdly in the crotch? I think darker jeans might do something similar, but it’s much more obvious on light washes. *grumble*

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