(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534078)

n. the desire to care less about things—to loosen your grip on your life, to stop glancing behind you every few steps, afraid that someone will snatch it from you before you reach the end zone—rather to hold your life loosely and playfully, like a volleyball, keeping it in the air, with only quick fleeting interventions, bouncing freely in the hands of trusted friends, always in play.

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/62661406328/liberosis

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534083)

n. the feeling that no matter what you do is always somehow wrong—that any attempt to make your way comfortably through the world will only end up crossing some invisible taboo—as if there’s some obvious way forward that everybody else can see but you, each of them leaning back in their chair and calling out helpfully, colder, colder, colder.

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/52394113596/paro

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534085)

n. a feast celebrated on the day of your 26th birthday, which marks the point at which your youth finally expires as a valid excuse—when you must begin harvesting your crops, even if they’ve barely taken root—and the point at which the days will begin to feel shorter as they pass, until even the pollen in the air reminds you of the coming snow.

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/55262926728/midsummer

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534090)

n. the moment of realization that your quintessential future self isn’t ever going to show up, which forces the role to fall upon the understudy, the gawky kid for whom nothing is easy, who spent years mouthing their lines in the wings before being shoved into the glare of your life, which is already well into its second act.

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/96032651218/the-meantime

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534094)

n. the frustration of knowing how easily you fit into a stereotype, even if you never intended to, even if it’s unfair, even if everyone else feels the same way—each of us trick-or-treating for money and respect and attention, wearing a safe and predictable costume because we’re tired of answering the question, “What are you supposed to be?”

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/36782067831/mimeomia

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=2836026&forum_id=2#27534097)