all of this is so deeply painful and humiliating to me, imagining these old men - many of them with paunchy bellies and balding heads, all of them with loose skin and deep wrinkles - who by all rights should be sexually invisible meek creatures, still preening and prancing and grooming themselves as if they were top-shelf young studs.

this universe is truly a sick joke, and i wish for it all to end.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35370256)

it's comforting somewhat that the average sex threads have veered candidly towards hookers and escorts in recent years. this is an honesty that can only be good for their declining mental health.

but the disconnect between what they're doing and what they perceive they're doing is increasingly alarming. numerous posters making 100+ post threads about falling in love with prostitutes and bar girls, marrying them, etc. still on the prowl for young tail, while only implicitly acknowledging the stringent financial demands for dating the kind of girl they want. it's like those demands don't exist, as if they can shove them under the table and they'll just disappear.

there's no finality to any of it. there's no drawing a line in the sand and admitting to oneself: this is it, this is the last time i will be with a girl who is desirable to me and i to her. here, there is no more recognition of the strict limitations of biological reality than a matronly 40 y/o shrew who still expects to meet her prince charming and have her first child. it's just sad in so many ways. you see this with the seekingarrangement crowd. you see it with the single asian professionals. you see it lurking behind every sex thread and girl thread and ratings thread and "haha there's this cute girl at my workplace.. should i hit it?" and then you realize the inquirer is this beaten up looking sad shell of a man who is way past his prime and who will never be fulfilled no matter what happens. or how about "falling for cute girl 10 years younger. she's a spinner UNNGHH gives me the will to live again" and you just know that OP is talking about a seekingarrangement escort and her temporary affections will drive him to an earlier suicidal death.

there is never any introspection. never the acknowledgement that my time is up, it's over, i'm done here. it's simply a futile continuation of old habits from years past, dressed up in all manner of crazy rationalizations and elaborate sleights of storytelling to pretend, as much for themselves as to others, that they're still living it up, still in their primes, still have a bright exciting future ahead. reading these sorts of posts and the supportive banter, is the height of my existential angst. day in and day out i subject myself to their delusions, and it sucks. it's like witnessing a broken down old race horse which doesn't know when to quit. it's limping on broken legs and you steady the shotgun because you feel this NEED to put it out of its misery, if only to absolve your own pain and save your own soul.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35370476)

He fails to realize that some of us like to escape our own lives and live a little vicariously through others. I don't think he's capable of vicarious enjoyment.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35370670)

Jk no they don’t

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35372105)

Oh, and I almost forgot, about that Diamond Cutter . . .

*diamond cuts u*

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG!!!!!!

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35373068)

lol isn't there some 20 y/o mentally ill trailer trash whore you should be texting this to?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35374510)

your wife will be a whore. the mother of your child will be a whore.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35377216)

I always planned to keep playing the field until my mid-late 30's. And it's a plan that has not been perfect, but has worked out pretty well for me.

I also realize that few poasters want to believe that I can pull chicks from SA without paying them. But that doesn't reduce my enjoyment of doing so.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35372883)

You will be robbed of your looks, your health, and your ability to compete and do the things you want to do, and at some point you're going to end up in the grave and that's the end. The difference between you and me is that you allow this reality to fill every part of your mind, you feel it all the time, and you rebel against it, and let it take your dignity, your pride, your kindness, until all is left is an intense white hot hatred and jealousy of those that will come after you, or still "have it".

Maybe you never had it, you rolled the dice and lost repeatedly, like a lot of people do. But it isn't a conspiracy against you like you think it is. Because if it's happening to you it's happening to everyone else too. Life means you die and that's the end and you had your one chance and all the bad things that happen to you aren't your fault and you never had the chances you deserve, or the respect that we feel like a human being ought to have to be a basic normal human being who could be happy.

But you have to find something in this mess to hold onto, and you simply cannot hold onto something that is gone, or was gone before you even knew it. So the bros you say you have contempt for...you think they are so pathetic...but aren't they trying to find something in this world they can enjoy. I don't think you enjoy pointing out their weaknesses at all because I'm sure you're aware how much worse off you yourself are, you've said many times how you hold yourself in such contempt and feel nothing but loathing. Finding something or someone to love can redeem you, whether it's a dog or some SA whore you need to delude yourself into loving, because that girl you met when you were 12 and dated for 14 years before you married and lived happily ever after is a fiction, because you aren't 12.

And yet we are made to love. Do not let the loss of perfection drive you insane because life can still be so very very very good. You can have friends, you can have a dog, you can help others, and you can love someone, maybe even love yourself. And when you die you can die knowing you loved. And an imperfect life is not a failed life that you gave up on, but one where you did the best you could and worked towards the good. Why are you clutching on to your rage, as if it will ever solve any problem you have or will have? Hit the gym, be nice to people, make friends, adopt some little abused kid or something and be their guardian angel, dress better, work harder and make more money. Or be mad you can't have the top .01% outcome in life because you're a small souled jealous asshole and that's all you could ever be.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35373663)

He's azn so it's going to be option b

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35373717)

nope, i'm furious when others deny it, such as the aging balding jubilant whore-fuckers that are the topic of this thread.

"The difference between you and me is that"

you've provided nothing about yourself. i can only talk about the jubilant balding whore-fuckers that are the topic of this thread. the only fundamental difference between what they're doing and what i'm doing is that i'm acutely aware of how pathetic i am, and they're not. this thread was meant to rectify that.

"But it isn't a conspiracy against you like you think it is"

i never said it was.

"So the bros you say you have contempt for...you think they are so pathetic...but aren't they trying to find something in this world they can enjoy"

what bullshit. you categorize someone who dedicates his life to loving his wife or his son or his dog, as essentially the same type of goodness as these aging balding jubilant whore-fuckers who are mostly diseased disgusting misanthropic pieces of trash seeking a whore dump their cum into? and you call ME the odd one out, the deranged one who needs to learn this life lesson you're handing out, because i screed about them while conducting my actual IRL with way more dignity than they are? let's see, i don't troll for gold-diggers online while getting my infant aborted. i don't fall in love with whores from whore sites consecutively and plan to marry them because i prize youth and the ability to boast online about an age differential more than mental saneness and compatibility. i don't cheat on dozens or hundreds of girls and pump and dump them while maintaining dozens more in some kind of harem. yup, i'm the one devoid of love for humanity here and those guys are doing great by your sage metrics.

"Do not let the loss of perfection drive you insane because life can still be so very very very good."

this is generic good advice which, when deployed in the context of this thread and in aid of the message you intended to convey, rings hollow to me. why? you literally defended those aging balding whore-fuckers who are pretty much the filth of mankind.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35374043)

grow a fucking beard and admit you got fucking pwn3d you NOWAG incel child beating azn freak

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375894)

he basically says to leave the past behind, accept mortality, and dedicate your life to loving someone whose flaws you can learn to accept. ok fine, fair point in 99% of contexts.

but he somehow had to warp this generic message to single me out as particularly despicable in the one thread where i'm calling out such characters as SAD (fucked 200+ whores, wants to get a CS bachelors, wants to move to 3rd world country to become a professional whore-fucker), Ragnus (2+ wives, aborted fetus, gold-digger chaser, obese gf cheating fake chad), diamond dallas page (alpha litigator and serial whore-romancer), and other assorted characters who are single into their 30+s and under the delusions that they can continue to chad it up without consequence for many more years to come by lowering their dignity into the dirt and existing as human pondscum in a gruesome charade that the board can gather around as a form of "living vicariously" because apparently it's fucking fun to anonymously pretend to be chads!

he somehow had to equate a good wholesome family man who's content with wife and kids with the likes of NYUUG in order to get at me, for god's sake. how the fuck does one even do that?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375402)

you see this? you take little nuggets like this, among other points he made, and you begin to see it for what it is. just a hollow reprimand with nice-sounding words that perhaps do contain a lot of truth, but where the real thrust lies in the unspoken commandment to just do what you enjoy doing, but don't broadcast your misery for others to see. whether it's raising a family with wife and 2 kids and a dog, or whore-mongering for decades of your adult life, as long as you do it with a veneer of happiness and reaffirm for the board that you are an ALPHA, then all is good with the world and you're making it.

i reject that notion of relativism. there IS a difference between the truly contented well-adjusted dudes out there, and the nyuugs and sads and diamond dallas's of the world, and it is worth pointing out especially when a bunch of delusional autistic lawyers attempt to elide over such because vicarious chad-living is so much easier to do instead.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375456)

despite all their shortcomings and flaws SAD, ragnus exhibit one admirable human character - their longing for love and companionship shows that they are capable of loving themselves and others. you on the other hand is just a hater who wants everybody to suffer through life just like you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375457)

I warned about this

another xo poaster watched it all

this is why we banned him from the EJMR chat

BE WARNED

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375460)

hey you stupid faggot, you're literally talking about

1) SAD, notorious whore monger who had a 23 y/o virgin gf he cheated on and dumped and repeatedly shows himself to be as much capable of commitment as what it costs to go another vaccation to thailand, you dimwitted stupid fuck

2) ragnus who was literally spouting PUA theories like a MGTOW'er and cheating on his actual girlfriend with black prostitutes while posing as some mega-chad to be admired and congratulated, only to whimper back into a little bitch at the threat of punishment when she announced her imminent return from abroad

3) why didn't you defend the OTHER subhuman pieces of shit i mentioned and explicitly called out in this thread, choosing to cherry-pick the two most pitiable ones?

in light of the above, their having a mouth for spouting sympathetic normie-isms is the ONLY dividing difference between them and me, and your defending them while calling me a piece of shit or whatever shows how low IQ and easily manipulable you are. but i already knew that when you were gaped re: crypto.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375467)

coming back to SAD/ragnus etc I didn't say they were perfect. SAD expects too much considering his market value and ragnus is an impulsive codependent freak. but i dont see them try to tear down ppl ever like you do. you are absolutely repulsed by 30+ ppl dating and question how dare they still have any hope of finding love and companionship just because they degraded physically. i guess by your logic only perfect human beings who dont fuck hookers or dump GFs ever can do this. sounds ridiculous to me

Just step back and read what you wrote below. sounds like elliot rodger on meth after a week of insomnia

"all of this is so deeply painful and humiliating to me, imagining these old men - many of them with paunchy bellies and balding heads, all of them with loose skin and deep wrinkles - who by all rights should be sexually invisible meek creatures, still preening and prancing and grooming themselves as if they were top-shelf young studs"

as for as the 3rd dood i have no idea who the fuck he is. today is the first day i noticed his moniker. so i left him alone

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375472)

and this is why i hate normies like you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375474)

you are the one who brought up IQ. i dont go around bragging about it bcos for one i am pretty sure there are 50 xo bros who are much smarter than me and second it is not that important overall. we both know that some meathead 100 IQ chad from ASU will crush life far more than most high IQ dorks like us

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375481)

oh wait u can't b/c ur fucking azn

LMFAO NOWAG

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375900)

I warned about this

another xo poaster watched it all

this is why we banned him from the EJMR chat

BE WARNED

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35375461)

The problem is, it can't. The fundamental disconnect between you two is that he is a NOWAG-male and you are not.

So you can turn away from the perfect and accept the good. That's not an option for XO NOWAGs. there's a reason DTP focuses his scorn on people like Ragnus, SAD, and NYUUG. We can scorn you for taking the good over the perfect because it's not a choice we ever had.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3888883&forum_id=2#35399083)