How to get over resentment?
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Date: February 26th, 2018 7:53 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I had an injury -> bad surgery 11 years ago that destroyed me physically. I was getting worse and worse and no one could tell why and everyone thought I was faking it. Eventually a doctor discovered what went wrong during my surgery trained the doctor that fucked up and wouldn't testify against him. My entire family is in the medical field and they basically did everything they could to prevent me from having sufficient documentation to get recourse.
I was an athlete in college. Our teams avg GPA was 2.8. If it was an adage on the team that if you wanted to work right after college that was fine but if you wanted to go to graduate school you needed a better GPA and had to major in a subject that tends to give out good grades. I discovered online that as long as you had above a 3.0 GPA and a good LSAT score you were going to be able to get into a good law school and that DOCUMENTED IDIOTS were making good money in the field. The only bad part seemed to be the cost of attending law school, but if you did well on the LSAT (which I did) you could get a full scholarship. By the time that I discovered the law schools were all lying it was too late. And my courseload closed the door on dentistry, which was my 2nd ranked option behind law.
When I discovered fraud both by the law schools and by my colleges sociology Department, I decided I didn't want to go to law school. My family assumed that I was just being lazy, and was making up things about my injury. So they cut me off financially in 2010 during a recession right after I graduated.
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:22 PM Author: Hideous black woman
"Whatever school you could have gotten with a shit gpa probably wasn't worth attending though. All of the info was online if u looked. Xoxo was going full steam then."
Nonsense.
In 2005 the officially available documentation indicated that law was it a very good field to go into. By the time I found out about the fraud in 2007 I had already chosen my major. I was defrauded out of STEM.
I don't buy that you actually buy your own argument
I'm sure you're aware that every school besides Harvard Yale Stanford and Berkeley will take you if you score 180 on the LSAT
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494426) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 9:22 PM Author: bipolar up-to-no-good degenerate
I don't remember it perfectly but I think CCN low gpa splitters needed like 3.2-3.4.
But at any rate, I don't think you were defrauded. A massive recession happened and the outlook changed on you midstream. However, there were only a small handful of schools that went from "good investment" to "bad investment" because they were almost all ripoffs to begin with. I remember reading articles about how the legal field was not that great even way back then, like in 2005, and you could also read accounts on greedy associates.
Anyways bro, if you got a high lsat, you're obviously bright and logical. You should know what a sunk cost is and be able to reason your way to getting over it. Pick something new and do your best at it.
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Date: February 26th, 2018 9:41 PM Author: Hideous black woman
Maybe we're just arguing over semantics, but I consider the fraud to have been done prior to law school. And it wasn't the top schools that tricked me; it was the lower-ranked schools. It was showing that people who lacked the cognitive capacity to do high-end work we're making a lot of money in law.
It's just that the damage had already been done. I studied my ass off to hit 175 and fell short, decided I couldn't go, and got disowned. Had I not been lied to me and thousands of other college students would have done differently.
The law school I actually attended was dishonest with me as well regarding the availability of externships. I knew that people who are similarly strong at standardized tests generally smoke me on timed written tests. So I needed to make sure that wherever I went, I was going to have internship opportunities such that I'd get the experience necessary to become a practicing DUI/PI lawyer ASAP. I thought I had done that but turns out the school didn't offer anything; they just meant that there were internships which we could apply to.
As far as "accounts of the field being bad", surely it makes more sense to rely on official documentation than a couple angry people on the internet right? Most of the people who were complaining about law school when I applied were complaining about student loan repayments that they were paying over $1,000 a month making 60 Grand a year.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35495077) |
Date: February 26th, 2018 7:54 PM Author: rusted set juggernaut
Deep therapy.
The subjects of your violent fantasies are only external stimuli of unhealthy emotions that would torment you regardless of whether these people existed or not. If it weren't them, it would be someone else.
It's amazing to me that smart people have such a hard time seeing this aspect of themselves.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494231) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:04 PM Author: Hideous black woman
Then I left academics after realizing that they were Liars.
Then I ended up selling financial instruments where I had to quit post Dodd Frank lest be forced to lie to the borrowers.
I had saved up about 50 Grand but given my physical ailments, I was one doctor's visit away from poverty, so my only realistic option at that point was to take my parent's money and go to law school. If I did an "internship", I'd have to dig into my savings JUST SO I COULD WORK.
I knew that the schools had lied about the job numbers, but I didn't know that they were lying about the availability of internships as well. I figured since my parents were so gung-ho about paying for law school that I'd be able to do internships while I was in law school. Turns out that was also a lie.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494295) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:18 PM Author: Hideous black woman
Yes actually, and it is one thing that keeps me going.
Before law school I was in constant pain and was on oxycontin maintenance.
I detoxed to myself off of Oxycontin before first semester so I could study harder. The pain was unimaginable. Eventually after trying many medications we discovered one that cut my pain down by 95%
I can't play sports anymore really. I can't jump; I can't turn direction rapidly, but holy shit am I happy that I'm not still in pain
I think for a while though I convinced myself that everything was going to be fine once I wasn't in pain anymore and all of these issues were just going to go away with time. But it seems that while I was in pain I did so much damage to my life that even now that I'm not in pain I still have a lot to deal with.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494387) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:09 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I tried to put it all behind me mentally and go into Information Technology. Enrolled in a masters program.
But I couldn't stop thinking about how angry I was all the time
I would drive to school, park the car, and stew in the rage in my car and then look at the time and realize that I would be 30 minutes to class if I went. So I took a medical leave.
If I can't get my shit together I'm going to have to start breaking some laws to get money.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494318) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:28 PM Author: Hideous black woman
That was part of what was so brutal about what happened to me a few years ago
My sports team was my support network but they thought that I was faking it so they abandoned me. After 2 years they realized that there was no way I was faking and now respect me again.
My post undergraduate co-workers respected me because of everything I was dealing with. When my parents cut me off they helped me carpool to work, would buy me lunch
Now I have no one
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494493) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:30 PM Author: tripping hairy legs crackhouse
lol @ "when my parents cut me off they [still supported me]"
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494507)
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:34 PM Author: Hideous black woman
Let me get this straight
According to you, I was acting ENTITLED for my family to help me after I became disabled and was victimized by fraud?.
Had I known that it was critical for me to be financially independent after college, do you think I would have majored in the liberal arts? My parents had over 10 million dollars (now even more) and sent us to expensive private schools. It didn't occur to me that anyone would send their kid to expensive private schools to then turn around and want them to not have any opportunities in any other field besides law and go out of their way to make their life as difficult as possible if you don't do that.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494536) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:59 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I remember learning about inheritance during property class in law school and totally lost it that our entire property system presumes that rich parents help their kids and reminded me why other people assume I have/have had an easy life.
When I started my job after college and I was only making $280 a week, I told my bosses that wasn't enough to live on, and they said "so? Just get money from your parents"
But I'd imagine that if my parents planned on giving me money, then why would they not be willing to help out before they died? Should I assume that they're going to have a change of heart before they die?
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494711) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:19 PM Author: crawly hospital sneaky criminal
You should look at it this way: most lawyers are fucking miserable. Perhaps it's a sign. Perhaps it's actually better in some way.
As cliched as it is, why not find something you actually enjoy and turn it into a business? I know personal trainers who love their lives. I know a dude who is obsessed with cars and he started a very successful car detailing business.
You don't need to collect any more degrees. Fuck that social signaling shit.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494404) |
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Date: February 26th, 2018 8:38 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I was a huge pothead in my teens, but then that caused me a shitload of problems after I turned 18. I replaced weed with cigarettes in my twenties to avoid legal repercussions and started hanging out with people in recovery. I used my painkillers very responsibly.
Towards the end of Law School I got to a point where I couldn't handle life anymore and decided to become a hardcore drug user.
I haven't used hard drugs in years but still smoke pot.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35494561) |
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Date: February 27th, 2018 4:53 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I do want to give it another shot. My professors really liked me, and there are right and wrong answers in tech so I don't have to spend the majority of my time trying to get inside the head of the person grading me like I had to for 7 years.
And I'm someone who does believe in personal responsibility and that's why I'm part of why I'm so frustrated is that yeah I went through some serious serious shit and got super fucked over, but that doesn't justify leaving my IT program.
I think they'd be happy to take me back. It's at a local state school in the same town that I grew up. We have a mutual investment in each other in that we both want our city and state to thrive.
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35500497) |
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Date: February 27th, 2018 5:01 PM Author: Hideous black woman
Yea absolutely.
I've been into technology my whole life. I just thought that I was being responsible not going into technology because of the threat of foreign competition.
I studied sociology in college and in 2006 it was clear to me that we were going to have a serious problem with foreign competition because the cost of living there is so much less that people are going to be able to do Tech labor there for Less which would depress wages.
That's how I whittled down my choices to dentistry and law, and it was clear that law was the path of less resistance.
Then in 2009 baby boomers scolded me for majoring in the liberal arts and not in Tech when THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT THEY INCENTIVIZED OUR GENERATION TO DO. My super rich aunt was bragging to me about how profitable unpaid internships are to her businesses, and would not help me out financially so I could do an unpaid internship, and she complained that there's a shortage of stem workers in the United States... A shortage that only existed because of fraud
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35500561) |
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Date: February 27th, 2018 5:05 PM Author: Hideous black woman
I went from B's to straight A's after discovering Jared Taylor. He showed the platform to get A's in the humanities:
1. Identify a group that's doing worse than other groups on some metric
2. Claim that is conclusive evidence of structural inequality
3. Conclude that more funding is needed
(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3904901&forum_id=2#35500586) |
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