We had mandatory showers in middle school and things were BY FAR much more rough those days than today where every kid is coddled. My parents literally couldn't understand my medical condition, and it certainly wasn't something they would go to teachers and ask for special exemptions for. that would have humiliated THEM

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35915836)

when I was first prescribed testosterone my father asked the doctor if I had to carry some permission slip with me all the time because he was aware of athletes illegally doping and getting prosecuted and he thought this was the same sort of thing.

Even as a little fella, I knew enough to became enraged with him for the aspergers-like stupidity ignorance and insensitivity of his question and from that point on the doctor would speak only w me about the treatment. And even then, the doctor couldn't really talk w me about the consequences of the condition like a parent should.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35915872)

In what way would, let's say, a camp counselor I spent two weeks w in the wilderness of Maine who had access to my medical records and climbed on the bus as we were leaving the camp and throwing down a toy balloon and shouting in front of all the other kids, "Spaceporn, I told you to stop leaving your rubbers around everywhere!" Remember, I then had to sit in the bus w everyone for the whole trip back home after that. That was when I was in HS actually.

In what way would, say, having guys fuck w my pants in the locker room and put a toothpick in the fly as a hahah joke be something justifiable?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35916702)

For what its worth, that's sort of what I did right at the time. And then once we left the camp and it grew dark outside and in the bus I couldn't stop the quiet tears and feeling of betrayal and exclusion.

Equanimity only comes w getting a sure footing in the world.

I used to fantasize about beating him, yes.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35916733)

On the bright side, you'd be a perfect candidate for sph. It's ADDICTIVE as fuck though so be careful

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35916751)

I like the more gentle and encouraging sort of SPH--like the porn where they admire the dick for being so cute and small. I could jerk off to that for hours. The ones where they laugh at you--eh, doesn't really do it for me.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35916771)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=3959301&forum_id=2#35915838)