- got some mindless work done, along the lines of email bullshit

- walked around town, noted how drunk everyone else was too, bars that never usually have bouncers opting to hire etc.

- went to a dinner with one of my best friends (also an irish degenerate, less degenerate), but suddenly he's really into "smoking" whiskey glasses

- long-haired poet and artist wife are also there

- we discuss dry-wall and other goy fix-it shit for hours, everyone leaves eventually and it's just friend and i drinking tullamore dew and watching F1 clips

- not sure how i stumbled home through 2 miles or so of cop-infested streets

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46067689)

Author: lex

i'm taking that whole thing

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46068470)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46068475)

OP is trying to mythologize and thus glamorize what’s just banal self destructive behavior

“Oh wow I’m like Bukowski haha” 1) you’re not 2) as Modest Mouse pointed out, “God, who’d want to be such an asshole?”

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46070785)

Liver failure is a shitty way to die, I've watched it happen

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46068960)

I get the sense that you’re currently basically unhappy with life and of course drinking is appealing but the problem is that you’re also I think searching for a life narrative to tide you over and are flirting with “oops degeneracy” when it’s not glamorous or fun

It doesn’t make you a bad person! But you probably should try embracing a part of you that challenges you to be different in a way that you don’t think of yourself as (like be more active or learn an instrument)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46070790)

stop digging the hole you’re in, get in the gym, faggot, and get off the booze. in 6 months you’ll look like a genetic male again and wonder why drinking yourself into an unending stupor ever seemed appealing in the first place.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46070800)

but over the years you see enough dudes who are not doing the right things to have a mental model of the likely range

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5308890&forum_id=2#46070835)