He used to crash at my place for like a week straight in Providence without asking. He would get drunk and cry and knock things over and I would feel too bad to tell him to leave so I could work on finals. He would beg to know my dating/sexual history and then call me a whore (his post is objectively untrue btw) https://imgur.com/a/BqzRfNN . He only wanted to date me because my parents have money and I went to a good school. Relationships should be based on openness and honesty and he never opened up to me. I learned more about his inner thoughts and his life/dating history from reading his old posts on this site than I ever did in person. He was so insecure and sensitive that I felt like I couldn’t even take a few nights to focus on my own stuff by myself or else I would hurt his feelings. At this point, I honestly don’t think he ever loved me. I do miss his parents though. I considered breaking up with him at points because I wanted to date an honorable guy and not someone who so clearly is holding so much rage inside and who says horrible things about other people. Good fucking riddance. Next time don’t force your way into my life. I wish I never met you. When we first started texting in Dec 2019 and you used the term “prole,” I had to Google it to figure out what it meant (I didn’t assume it had any relation to “proletariat”). I wish I never started using this godforsaken site. Of course part of me still loves him but I would not want to date him ever again. He was the one who aggressively pursued. I actually remember describing him as “immature but sweet” to people when I first met him. I should have never given him a chance.

Edit: I typed this less an hour ago and already feel guilty for writing it. But I really don’t think he loved me anymore. I think he was good at acting like he did. The way he dealt with the breakup showed me that it was all fake all along and I wasted so much time WATCHING TV ON THE COUCH LIKE A LOSER when I dated him. I hurt him and he hurt me and it just hurts all around and I pray that God takes the pain away because I can’t do it on my own.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967188)

“Break up”

“Breakup”

“Dating”

“Dated”

“Sex”

Millions of sex terms

Terms having to do with family, food, school, etc. etc. I know about numerous of his past relationships and many of his sexual exploits from this site. He would never talk to me about stuff like that in person.

I also would put keywords into Google (and add “site:autoadmit.com” at the end). None of you would believe me if I told you how much time I spent researching him on this site.

This was all pre-moniker randomization, mind you.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967262)

Now you're coming back and telling us what we told you a long time ago -- he's 180 as shit

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967519)

He seemed like a typical effeminate lispy zoomer dork.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967461)

And any man you date will know bp wrecked that shit before him.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967274)

Will you please spread your legs?

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967603)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44967790)

I'll even include handwritten poems dedicated to you.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968277)

Never would I have met the apple of my eye

That lithe Irish dame lacking decorum

Whose love I could never truly deny

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968874)

lol i'm down to try.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968971)

lol @ slimepits

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968827)

- November 2021- I saw him at mass with his family and I was sitting in the back alone. Right before mass starts, I excitedly run up behind him and tap him on the shoulder. He turns around and once he sees it’s me, his face goes straight/blank and he turns around to ignore me. His mom blew me a kiss and sister waved at me, which was really nice. I love his family so much. When it was time near the end of mass to wish each other “peace,” he turned around and smiled and waved at me for a split second which lit up my heart. So did his sister.

- November 2021- I see him at the weed dispensary after my gym sesh. I actually noticed his car as I was walking into the building and my heart froze. He was ahead of me in line and I tapped him on the shoulder and waved at him and we made eye contact and he gave me this weird smile as he rushed past me to pick up this order. As I exit the building, I see him basically speeding out of the parking lot. I just wanted to give him a hug and say hi. This was my best friend and we spent so much time together. I cried so hard that night.

- right before Lent, 2022. I see his car on the highway.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968576)

didn't you fuck a married college professor recently? lmao

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968520)

you're a Johnsmeyer parody GF

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44971186)

this bitch is not

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968544)

it's the real gjr? she's nuts

it's boner police pretending to be gjr? jfc get thee to bellevue

it's a random poster pretending to be gjr? way too invested at this point, total lunacy

it's a random poster pretending to be boner police pretending to be gjr? wtf

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968559)

And I don’t use Reddit like most of you

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968676)

lol

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968634)

I go about life and make the decision to be happy but pushing down these thoughts doesn’t make any pain go away

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44968928)

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44971291)

Also: lolno I don’t have BPD. And I am a happy person.

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44971820)

she just needs to admit herself to a nunnery or something

(http://www.autoadmit.com/thread.php?thread_id=5167461&forum_id=2#44972325)