Date: June 21st, 2026 9:48 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
I'm a software engineer. I found out last October that I was being laid off in April but I put off applying for jobs right away so I could get my "transition bonus"
then my layoff date came. I applied for a couple weeks, got through a few rounds at some companies, got discouraged and am now traveling with family and CHILLING and POASTING.
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:16 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
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I have about $50K in my bank accounts and $400K between two 401ks. no assets, not even a car.
yeah exactly. I've never been a high-intrinsic-motivation person, and - as is probably the case for 95% of poasters - I've never had to put "effort" into anything to perform well, so I never learned to. for my first job out of college I only sent out like five apps and pretty much immediately got a job. for my second and most recent, it was about a two-month process but I was employed while searching so there was no rush.
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:22 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
well when I'm genuinely interested in something I can put tons of time and effort into it. but I don't think that's ever happened professionally (and it was never necessary academically). you?
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:29 PM Author: Metaphysics is Gay
same i dunno. i get myopically into things in private but still step back and dont understand why/what im doing. so i just let that fly professionally. if there's a problem to solve at work i can get pretty obsessive about solving it regardless of what it is. i guess my specific motivations are usually pointing thing out I think people don't see. in general i hate superficiality.
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:38 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
can you explain the second sentence? I relate to the latter part of your poast. although your version of that is probably more profound - at my job, sometimes that just means coming up with a thorough and systematic approach to something other people may have approached in a less organized way.
I forgot to mention, professionally what motivates me is time pressure. I'll procrastinate something for a few days and when it gets to the point where I calculate it'll look REALLY bad if I don't finish soon, I'll put in a really long day or two and bang it out. and then I often receive praise for the quality of my work - which is funny because I think I only half deserve it and the other half is that people are primed to be impressed by it because it took longer than it was supposed to. lolol
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:43 PM Author: Metaphysics is Gay
yeah exactly. i relate to the time pressure thing but sort of self-impose deadlines, so i finish early and i think people don't have the same reaction. which in your case is incredibly strategic lol.
i think thats what i meant with the second sentence. i just like the feeling of tunnel vision for its own sake. its probably feeding some need for grandiosity, where i feel like im staking everything on this 1 project and i need to ignore everything else and commit everything to this.
if im reading you right that's kinda what you're saying around coming up with a systematic approach even if it might be overkill. its something about feeling like this problem needs an urgent, systematic solution and everything else can wait. love that feeling regardless of what it is.
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:52 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
it's 1800000 that you have a similar high-level approach to things (and I actually do take pride in that, myself) and that you don't even need to put yourself in a do-or-die situation to get it done. I wish I had that in me. are you comfortable saying generally what field you're in?
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:51 PM Author: controlling a virtual character on a computer
there's literally no point in doing anything unless you're under total all encompassing pressure to accomplish that thing, preferably under the threat of death if you fail
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:32 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
failure/rejection: I get emotionally attached to things sometimes and rejection hurts in that sense. like when I get through a few rounds of interviews at a company that genuinely seems like a good match, I kinda get my heart set on the job and get pretty bummed when I don't get it. but I don't take it personally or let it affect my confidence or anything. well, maybe for a day or so but I think that's pretty standard.
adversity: I've never had to face anything difficult in my life :/
Date: June 22nd, 2026 4:10 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
idk, I just spend most of what I make; similarly to the other stuff I mentioned, I never really learned to be responsible with money because I never had to. I definitely order delivery way too much.
Date: June 21st, 2026 9:50 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
I should be freaking out more than I am. I don't really keep a "budget" or track my "spending" so I don't know how many months of savings I have, probably like 6-9 depending on when/whether I get serious about not running out of money.
Would love to get back into gainful work but unfortunately I was robbed and nearly killed multiple times and haven't been able to recover since and if I was going to hazard a guess I'd say the same people trying to kill me with the biblical edict regarding work are the same people who robbed and nearly killed me and are "playing both sides" of that matter as it were to defraud me of my assets and then kill me lol
Date: June 21st, 2026 9:53 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
I'm genuinely sorry for what you've experienced but have you seen a doctor about whether you're potentially experiencing delusions/hallucinations because some of the stuff you poast is PP-confirmed not true
I'm going to tell the people how this stuff works and I'm going to do it as I see fit. You rob and scam people, isolate their perspectives, and then call it "schizophrenia". And in this case there are a lot of torah and other type jews on my side wondering why this guy who made stuff they liked suddenly isn't (making it) anymore
And then they listen, and they find out for themselves, and this business regarding a simple and caring "mental health" safeguard we have in place being abused by people too-skilled at abusing it becomes apparent
I will have no problem dropping this garbage and returning to normal but I'm not going to do it until my complaints have been addressed and rectified
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:22 PM Author: electric disturbing sweet tailpipe corner
I've been willing to listen and open minded but you just post a bunch of nonsensical slop and insults. Can you please just explain precisely what is going on in plain terms? Perhaps we can try to help.
Hey guy it was proposed by "Emilio" or you know some Scamphardic prune of a heeb scammer that you should rape an ex of mine who is---quite literally devoted----to me and the bones of the world we made and who would be infinitely better of a partner to me than his whore daughter
Doubt I believe this as written but this was the largely rejected proposition as I received it and sorry that you took beating after beating in the process of trying to make it stick
Date: June 21st, 2026 10:39 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
very 180 and crrrr that you've achieved that! yeah, if I were in that situation I'd just stop working and devote all of my time to my hobbies and interests (some creative, some SCHOLARLY).
Date: June 22nd, 2026 11:21 AM Author: Richard Ames
Just find some simp provider. I appreciate that you like to poast, but it is such a reminder of how women basically get to play act throughout life because you have an actual "Get out of jail" free card through your vagina.
Whether or not you would admit this, there are countless "career focused" women who spend a decade-plus on their "careers," often in high enough paying jobs. Only to have basically nothing to show for it. They spend the money on their "passions" (travel) and don't plan long-term because they know they can just opt out at almost any point in time.
It's not even explicit. It's just there in the background.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 11:26 AM Author: Supple doobsian field
I'm in a relationship for LOVE and the guy doesn't make much $$. even if this doesn't work out, I can't imagine prioritizing how much a guy earns. to me, it would feel like "settling" to be with someone for any reason other than personal compatibility.
yeah I've never cared about my career; I just work to make money to have fun outside of work. I spend pretty recklessly, not just on myself but also on friends, mutual aid, charity, etc. not sure if that means I fall into the category you're talking about or not.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 11:36 AM Author: Richard Ames
Great, then get married.
You sound more self-aware than most women in this general regard, assuming you are being truthful. But "I just work to make money to have fun outside of work" is basically what I'm talking about. No planning for the future because you don't really have to in the way that a man does.
You at least don't seem to act like "My Career" is so Important, which is what many (many) women pretend to do (consciously or not) until they realize that really getting ahead is actually difficult. Post-30, usually, when the low hanging fruit of just showing up and doing tasks won't get you any further.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 11:41 AM Author: gunneratttt
Like most women that "seem self-aware" or come off as cool, chill, and downright dude-like: she is insane and has broke the brains of many men that were highly motivated to wife her up and provide whatever she wanted.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 12:08 PM Author: Richard Ames
lol yes obviously true. I have known many women like this and it saddens me to watch the ones that never settle down. Life comes and hits them like a brick fucking wall when they hit 40 in the most brutal way possible. And they never, ever, ever see it coming.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 12:18 PM Author: gunneratttt
She had some thread about freezing her eggs recently and is now confidently and without qualification saying she "definitely won't have kids."
That wall looming is the glimpses of self-awareness you see in her poasts belie a much deeper, profounder blindness.
But we're wasting our breath as this has been explained to her ad nauseum for two decades, and as the truth of these warnings have begun to manifest she's still poasting about how her beauty "might run out someday maybe teehee" as a middle-adged, unemployed woman living in a deliberately non-committal situationship.
I am 100% sure I don't want to reproduce; I plan to foster/adopt a child instead. BUT I froze my eggs to keep that door open as a plan B in case something changes s.t. I'm unable to foster/adopt AND I really want to be a parent AND it's too late to conceive naturally.
ITT I said it in the context of not needing to rush. that's true, because even if something unforeseeable happens and I somehow change my mind, I have the eggs.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 12:27 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
stealth edited to explain
yes, if you're autistic, "definitely not going to" is inconsistent with the minuscule possibility that I end up being unable to foster/adopt and want to be a parent badly enough that I choose to go through the very unappealing process of bringing a new life into this world. but my points stand that (1) I am positive I don't want to reproduce; and (2) there's no need to rush to get married for the purpose of reproduction
Date: June 22nd, 2026 12:46 PM Author: gunneratttt
It's not autistic to point out the that saying you definitely won't do something while taking substantial steps to preserve that option is incompatible.
As Ames said: you are delusional and actively denying reality.
Same thing with foster or adopt. You will not do either of these things. The reason I know this is that you're unemployed (have time and opportunity) to dip your toe into volunteering here and you aren't.
It's the same reason you find it necessary to point out you're not spending money on "pure hedonoism." You want to believe that you're serious about doing these noble things, but you know you're not, and that dissonance is distressful for you. I suggest that you either start doing things or accept that you're not the person you imagine yourself to be. Otherwise that wall is going to slap you hard like Ames said (you are currently being slapped by it actually).
It's also hilarious that bow tie niggas who is probably Boner Police thinks gunneratttt is actually a jeet and fell for that shit. He's not as smart as he thinks he is!
Oh wait I guess this is HATP simping for the Jewess that cucked him.
FWIW I'm being blunt to TBTP because that's the only thing an online person can do to moe the needle towards the goals she claims she aspires to. I would love if she started her debate channel or started doing foster care. But she won't. And me saying that to challenge her is the only thing I can do that might persuade her to (but it won't.).
Date: June 22nd, 2026 3:27 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
ty for the tough love. I'm definitely going to do the debate channel. fostering is my plan but it's not 100%. that's why I generally say "I plan to" instead of "I'm going to"... but I use them interchangeably sometimes because it's the internet
I definitely can't afford to actually foster right this moment, and I'd rather do it when married, but you're right that I should volunteer for foster kids instead of just donating money to them. I'm on a mailing list for such opportunities but need to actually follow through; as I described ITT, I have poor executive function. actually one time I signed up for a career event for foster kids but it got canceled rip
You'll be in a boat back to Israel in a few years and I hope you can perform whatever role barren women do on the Kibbutz. You will be doing compulsory foster care, which is what Yahweh intended for you.
Is this HATP? What happened to you? Btw BP is a great poaster. How tf do you write 180 white nationalist rants and then get MAF when your heeb mlady is besmirched?
Date: June 22nd, 2026 10:39 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
did you study how most BPD people stabilize and become Normal within a decade? something crazy like over 90% iirc. it got this stigma in the 90s and 2000s with Girl, Interrupted and shit and everyone was all "omg they're hopeless" and then it turned out most of us just Outgrow it. not to minimize the damage done in the meantime or anything
Date: June 22nd, 2026 11:45 AM Author: Supple doobsian field
yeah, I think he'd probably want to. but we're also content enjoying our time together as it is. when we met, we'd both already decided that we loved our lives and would be fine being single forever. we might at least move in together soon to save $$ since currently we're together most days but switch off whose apartment we stay at. I'm definitely not going to reproduce, so there's no rush to get married in the context of an existing relationship, and the only reason to rush if I become single again is that I'll lose my beauty eventually.
I stealth edited one sentence in to clarify that spending "to have fun" isn't just spending on myself but also includes being generous to my friends who make less, giving to people in need, stuff like that. not pure, shallow hedonism.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 12:03 PM Author: Richard Ames
Like so many women, and increasingly "men," you sound like you don't understand that time will pass and you will age. You might say you understand this, but nothing you've said proves any level of real understanding.
Anytime someone says I'd "be fine being single forever," I assume they just cannot actually comprehend the passing of time and the fact that they will not be young forever. Sure, dicking around and doing whatever shit you did when you were single is fun when you are 20 - 30 or so...but wait until you get to 40. And then all the sudden everyone else has paired up and, in many cases, started families.
Obviously I am wasting my time even saying any of this.
Date: June 24th, 2026 3:21 AM Author: Chocolate appetizing church
180 classic box spin on her financial retardation: "I blow all my money being an awesome benevolent and socially enlightened helper to friends and broader society alike!"
I feel as if there must be decent overlap between your statement and highly online women who threatened to kill their college roommates.
Date: June 22nd, 2026 7:19 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
just got an email from a different company (not one of the ones I applied to), maybe because I just put my resume on Indeed? and set up a screener for Thurs morning!
Date: June 22nd, 2026 8:48 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
crrrr. last time I was looking for a job, my friend sent me her list of "questions to ask interviewers" with like a million Qs and I pick and choose from those based on the company and discussion... the recruiters always compliment my Qs, but reactions are mixed in later rounds because some of them are genuinely hard to answer. but then if I have time I lighten things up with "what do you like to do outside of work?" and they usually enjoy answering that :)
Date: June 22nd, 2026 8:52 PM Author: Metaphysics is Gay
i had some kid try to take over my interview with him recently. like 10 minutes in he goes, "if that's all your questions I have a bunch for you." It was insane
"If I came up with a revolutionary idea that transformed the entire company and made billions of dollars would I own any part of that idea or would you own it outright?"
Date: June 22nd, 2026 9:13 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
good point. you can then ask follow-up Qs about WHICH snacks. my first job had snacks but they were pretty bad; aside from the yogurt that all got eaten early in the week, the only decent one was peanut butter pretzel bites, but I got tired AF of those after a few months
"So let me ask you this, while we're being frank, in your 'opinion' *nauseatingly gesticulates scare quotes* would you say that a PREMIUM company would only have yogurt that was gone by the middle of the week and peanut butter pretzel bites that I will get sick of after a few months? To be clear I'm only asking in comparison to your vision of what a PREMIUM company to work for would do."
Date: June 22nd, 2026 9:09 PM Author: Supple doobsian field
np! I've gotten some illuminating answers from the "ethical concern" one, like one time I asked the CTO that Q and he told me about how a C-level sexually harrassed someone at the annual on-site and they summarily fired him. I ended up working for that company
sometime earlier this year i had an epiphany that my entire life has been a spectacle of a long form pervasive humiliation ritual where i earnestly study academics that are largely made up and work white collar for absolutely nothing of worth till a computer script replaces me