i was extremely suicidal for like a decade but over the last 18 months or so that has completely stopped. its the weirdest thing. my life hasnt improved at all but i am just content now instead of being absolutely painfully miserable all the time. its weird as hell tbqh.
i did T supplementation during this period. it boosted it from 300-400 to nearly 1500. but i hvae been off T for months now and no drop in mood. thats the only thing i can directly trace it to. otherwise im mystified.